Where is my life?

I have no goal. I have no direction. I just don't want to wake up. I hate you. I hate me. I just hate. I just want to be left alone. I don't want to pretend anymore. Why can't I just be myself? Why must I please people around me? Why must I live? I hate life. It has brought nothing good to me. Nothing. Why can't I be where I want to be doing what I want to do? Why do I have to make decisions? Why is it difficult? Why do I have all these problems? Why do I have to worry? Why can't I just be free? Why cannot I just cry and not care about the consequences? I hate where I am now. I never like being where I am. I just want to cry. I just want to be happy. But why am I not happy?

Is this what you call life? If it is, then I don't want it. I really don't. It's not worth it. Just take it back. Just leave me alone.