Me Mommy and you Daddy??

The bf made me angry yesterday... he's not able to make it back AGAIN this weekend. It irritates the hell out of me when people promise you but then don't deliver... >(

Anyhow, in order to "fuse my fire", this is what he sent me:

Title: Please don't be mad at me dear
" Just now Nici just told me he miss you alot.. and he wants me to apologize to you.. and that he saw that I'm so sad, because of missing you so much and having a hard time at work, so he decided to apologize on behalf of me to you, 'mommy please forgive daddy, daddy is out there making money so that we can have a better living next time.' Dear, please don't be mad at me k? Love and miss you a lot.."

This is Nici, the tiny lion ~~ROAR

So, when did I become mommy and you daddy? And to my lions? Hmm... I thought I was the only crazy one who talks to my toy lions... now you? Too much Penang air I reckon...

But in the end.... I think it's sweet of you, adapting to my silliness.... Thank you ling... and for the record, I was pissed because you didn't keep your promise... for 3 weeks straight!!

Not too bad for a Fiday morning

Ahh... July 31... who would had known that this day will arrive so soon.. and to think that I was eagerly counting down the days just 2 weeks ago... how time flies by...

Woke up this morning first to the bf's morning call, but than as usual, recently I've been falling back asleep... but today's real morning call came so unexpectedly (well, kinda, sorta.. I was half expecting the call)! Guess who's going for an interview this coming Tuesday? Haha.... and the best part? It's from a company that I half hoped I get. :D

Okay, an interview doesn't mean I will get the job but I just can't help it! I need to spill a little beans here on why I'm so excited about this job... Firstly, because it's in Klang! Haha... Well, it's not in Klang, Klang like Klang town or far far away deep in dunno how many miles Klang. It's actually in one of Klang's more 'happening' builings and area - Centro. So not bad huh? Secondly, imagine how much I can save every month! Only around 10km from home, which means I can save on petrol; no parking fee - no more 6 freaking bucks a day; no more 4.20 toll a day! Woohoo! How super cool is that! I'm soooo keeping my fingers cross for this job... well, even though I don't and won't know will I like it there... but I'm really looking at the more positive side of it. :)

That is one (BIG) thing that made my morning today, but there are also a few tinnier things that made it so perfect like now... Traffic wasn't that bad (took only 50 minutes to get to work), and I won't let 1 stupid grey Proton Savvy spoil it; my boss (ex-boss to be in another 6 hours) wasn't as bitchy as I thought he would be when I had him sign my very last invoice. He tried to make nice little small talk... Oh well, what ever... And... I'm not Wi-filess! The IT dude changed the position of the router yesterday and I really thought what a sucky day I'm going to have as a last day today, but who knew that he changed it back! (Thumbs up for you Deva) :D

See! Not too bad huh? No more job reqs...I'm just going to plain surf the net the whole day today, then go for my free McD dinner later...

Me hearts today... ~♥

JINX!!!

Jinx!! Totally totally jinxed!! The boyfriend was (yes! WAS) to come back this weekend, but now, it's uncertain AGAIN! Every time when he had made plans to come back and is feeling positive about it... BOOM! Something will come up. Apparently this time, the big client boss is back at the site... hmmph! The same person who made the bf miss his trip back a few weeks ago... SOOO ANGRY!!!! See! It's jinxed! He cannot want to come back... It happens every single time for the past 3-4 weeks already!

So what killing 5 birds with one stone now? No bird with no stone sounds more like it now... Another 2 events to add to the list that he'll be missing: My last day and my farewell McD dinner!

SOOO ANGRY!!!!! JINX!! JINX!!

Work your PR skills girl! - NOT!!

It's about time I swipe out my PR skills and start pulling strings... or what so ever little skills I have to be more certain...aye... I never like to do PR.

I'm a shy person. My skin is not thick enough. I don't know how to start a conversation or blend into one, or even end one or prolong it... gosh! I sure suck!

Anyhow, the reason being is because, I dunno, at the spur of a moment, I just suddenly msg-ed my ex-boss from McCann. At first I tried to be all friendly and ask how's work, then be professional and ask about more work.. then suddenly I blurted out the question! "Do you have a job for me?" Huh? OMG! What was I thinking! The next thing I knew, after answering my other questions about work plus a question in between back to me asking me "I tot you already have a job?"...... (silence... no clicking sound to indicate a reply....silence...) There. Offline.

Did he do that on purpose? Or was he really busy? He did mention that he was really busy that was why he only replied my msg after like 2-3 hours? How now? How? Maybe he's like me? I do go offline all of the sudden all the time when I'm busy. Right? Right? Did I irritate him? He's already sooo busy and the last thing he needed was me trying to pull strings! How? How?? :'(

Arrrgh!!! What did I just do! I'm no PR person, so why in hell did I go budge my nose into that area? See! Now what's going to happen? Surely he's thinking now that I'm the type of person who only comes to you when there is a favor needed! But. but, I'm not.... seriously.... That is why I hate PR in the first place! Cause this IS what I think of people who PR... *sigh.......

1 more page!

Why do we always keep the hardest one to the last? My portfolio is nearly done, but just missing one more page,one very important page. The Nescafé page... I know that this page is the weakest one among the rest design wise, but branding and experience wise, I think that it is very strong. Not a lot of designers my level have such vast exposure, from press to outdoor to packaging and even photo shots and TV commercials... Heck! Not even some Art Directors! Plus one which is even recognized by the client himself, may I emphasize...

So you see, this is where the problem lies. The difficultly is to portray those 3 years tastefully. Who wants to flip through pages and pages of red with no superb designing in it? Aye... I first have to compile and sort out each material then filter... It's not going to be easy... I'm so dead.... @_@III

Free dinner on Friday.. :)

11.48.40 am. Received a really unexpected sms from Honey. She wants to treat all of us 'jimuis' to McD's! Haha... Really wonder why... Maybe she had a very very good day at the office? (Oh! Have I ever mentioned that she works in McD?)

Anyhow, it's little things like this that makes me feel happy and fortunate that I have friends like her in my world... It might not be a biggie (McD's only what) but I don't know.... It's the thought that counts... it's the time we get to be together, share stupid stories... laugh together, laugh at each other... :D

Oh! And the bf is invited too! See can kill 2 birds with just 1 stone. The bf promise to be back on Friday...wee... Can catch up with the girls, can pak-toh with the bf some more, oh! Can fill my stomach also leh... not forgetting that McD is "our place".... Oh! Oh! Plus my farewell! Haha! (So wu-liao -_-III) hmm... Looks like it's 5 birds with just one little tiny stone! :D

Tuesday, 28th July 2007 @ 11.52pm

At this very moment, this second now, besides the fact that I just told the boyfriend that I'm tired and hitting the sack right after I hung up, he is actually reading my posts here! Yup! He's trying his best to catch up on the past year of his girlfriend.....

Good luck and love you... muaks! Happy reading! Good night... ~♥

6 months

In just another 4 more days, the bf and I will be celebrating our for 6 months together! (*clap clap clap) Anyhow, I was just wondering should I finally reveal this little blog of mine to him? I did mention to him before that I blog and for a very short period of time he did pester me to tell him but stop eventually (that is one thing among soooo many other things I like about him. :) He respects me, my privacy, my space.).

So, back to the main question: should I or should I not? I personally think that I should. Reason being that I do write a lot of things that happen to me daily and at times like this when he is working out-station, its good that he knows what is happening with me.... And you know we girls, sometimes it's hard for us to tell what we really want to say and we make guys guess. And the worst thing about us is that even if he did manage to guess what's up with us, we will still say it's wrong and just continue to pout and blame... haha.... right? (Sorry girls for leaking one of our biggest secret weapon to make guys suffer... :p)... Also, it's not very fair right that my girlfriends know and he doesn't? How is a relationship going to last with 'sneaking around'?

Okay, so it's decided? Hmm.... I don't think I wrote anything bad about him before... right? Well, before we got together doesn't count! :p

So darling.... Welcome!!! :D

Clinomania

Live and learn people say, and today I learnt a new thing.... about myself!

I am have Clinomania (cli•no•ma•nia), which means an excessive desire to stay in bed!

Explanation:
Clinomania comes from Greek meaning the obsession of sleeping. In fact clinomania is the extreme necessity in sleeping and the desire to stay in bed for a long time not even sleeping. In other words it is love to bed, pillows and blankets.

Usually clinomania is the reflection of psychogenic behaviour disorder. It can be explained as the desire of a person to escape from the difficulties of every-day life into the good and comfortable atmosphere of the bed. It may also be the symptom of the endogenous depression if there is also hypersomnia, organic lesion of the brain, schizophrenia. (source)

Haha.. so true... especially the part where it stated "the desire of a person to escape from the difficulties of every-day..." so true... now I know why it's hard for me to get out of bed usually when I'm sick and tired of my job... :p

He refers to her as 'Mummy'

Recently I noticed that the bf have started referring to my mum as 'mummy'. He used to refer to her as 'auntie' just only a few months ago. Wonder did he notice. And if he did, why the sudden change? :)

100 days

Time sure flies by fast.

Today, without us really realizing is already the 100th day since my dad passed away. According to Chinese tradition, prayers will usually be done on the 7th and 100th day after the death. So since we don't really pray at home, mum and I went to the temple to do so this evening.

Bought some flowers to be 'given'.

You know, superstition is a funny thing. We Chinese believe that the dead will come talk to us in our dreams if they want to send a message. And usually it will happen on more important days. For instance, I did dream about my dad on the 7th day after his death. We believe that it was him telling us that he is already gone. Today, mum told me that she dreamed of him last night. I believe that he was telling her to remember his 100th day today. :)

I never knew how to really prayed. You see, my generation now days are not really exposed to all these joss stick burning stuff, unless if you yourself insist to learn. Is there a proper way to hald the joss sticks? How many times to bow? How many sticks? I have no clue. I remembered asking mum when I was young, if I prayed (as in do a monologue in my heart as if I'm 'talking') in English, will he/she/it understand? Mum's reply was 'yes' because they are all a 'higher-power'. Till today, I'm still not really convinced.

Anyhow, because I'm a illiterate to all these, I just followed and imitated what mum did. I let her do all the 'talking' and I just stood beside. And finally after placing the last joss stick and burning the 'money', we thought, why try the 'fortune-telling-shake-bamboo-sticks-thingy' (sorry, I have no clue how to describe this in English and too bad no photography was allowed in the prayer foyer). Again, mum did all the 'talking' and I did the shaking. She asked about if dad was alright in the other world and has he moved on. Finally the bamboo stick which fell out from the cylinder stated no.17 and this was what no.17 paper said (points below).

My mandarin is not that good but roughly it all says good.

Mum's happy and so am I. We hope that dad knows where he went wrong in this life and will and have moved on to be a better person in his next. :)

Yasmin Ahmad

Just came back from a yum-cha session with the gang and to now find that Yasmin Ahmad is gone?? We were just talking about her just now.... I'm shocked! Seriously, this news to me is even bigger than Michael Jackson's.

If given chance, I would had really hoped that one day I could work with her, well everyone in the Advertising and Design industry would love to do that. But too bad, there will not be that chance anymore.

I remember Yasmin was the name of a famous Advertising and Design person, an idol I named when Joseph, my Corporate Identity lecturer then in One Academy pass us a slip of paper in our very first class with him asked us this question "Who in Advertising and Design is your inspiration?" That was 7 years ago.

I also remember how jealous I was when a few of my classmates then had the chance to interview her for a project. In the video they took, she really seemed really friendly. But I too met her once before when in McCann I think 2 years ago. She came to see Hwa and me being at the correct place, at the correct time, I was the one who opened the door for her and invited her in. I remember her speaking to me in Mandarin. That was my closest encounter with her.

There are numerous stories about her spreading in the industry. Good or bad, news about her always catches people's attention. But funnily, no one ever talks bad about her.... People who has met her and worked with her before always say that is is always jovial. Even in pictures, she is never seen 'normal' or 'serious'. I bet she is surely the life of the party....

It's really sad to hear someone so prominent in this industry gone. Everyone and anyone on the streets will tell you that the festivals in Malaysia will never be the same anymore without her commercials, but to us in the industry, it's more than that, something so profound that it's hard to explain, like a spirit.

There is nothing left to be said and done now.... the only thing we can do now is to thank her for all the inspiration she has given us through out her life and hope to keep on learning from her even if she is not here anymore.... You will surely be missed...

Scratch and run

Yesterday night after dinner with the KL gang in SS2's 'Wai Sek Kai', as usual after dinner, we will always detour to our favorite 'yum cha' place, Yuppie Ice for some Advertising gossip...

The night went really well... till when I came out and found my car scratched! My baby's butt was scratched by a 'scratch and runner'!! :(

The damage

After a shower and polishing... so deep the scar.... the is no way to save this anymore... the paint is already gone... :(

Okay, I admit that I did park illegally, but I swear that when I parked my car, a Wira pass through nicely. The driver didn't have a single bit of difficultly making that corner into the lane... but this feller (male or female, I don't care) who drives a white car (I assume from the residue left) is one damn lousy driver! Cannot even estimate! Gosh!

Well, anyhow, I think both parties are to blame, me parking illegally and that feller is a lousy driver! So in conclusion, lesson learned:

ALWAYS FIND FOR PROPER PARKING IN SS2, EVEN IF YOU ARE CONFIDENT THAT ILLEGAL SPOT IS SAFE TO PARK, DRIVERS THERE... NOT SO HAPPENING.

~ A public service reminder brought to you by YuKiSu

借我一輩子

借我一輩子 = Lend me for the rest of your life

Just heard that song over the radio on the way to work. It's by Gary Chaw (曹格). A very talented Malaysian singer who made it big in Taiwan, and I must add one of my idols.

Before the song was played, the was a short intro to it. It started with a question why "lend"? Aren't you suppose to "give"? Isn't suppose to say "I give you the rest of my life"? It's more romantic like this right? But when Gary explained the whole meaning behind it.... it does make sense. It surely does not sound so romantic up front, but it sure is with it's explanation.

"借我一輩子"因為借了就要換回。那麼這個樣子，我們就可以戀愛兩輩子咯！

"Because you will have to pay me back. Therefore, we will then be able to love each other again in our next life"

"I'll be back this weekend"

... that was what the boyfriend said... yesterday night, and last week, and 2 weeks ago! I have not seen him for nearly a month now (25 days to be exact). Over all, that project had put him nearly 400km away from each other for more than a month already , and he's still not done! He used to be only 20km and a 1 buck toll away...

Now he says that he will only be coming back next week... and it's not for good! Only back over the weekends and he might still need to be 400km away on weekdays! Hmmph! I didn't 'sign-up' to be in a long distance relationship...

He had already missed me being ill for a week, to bring me for my ENT appointment, HIS own birthday, me resigning and I'm sick again now! Not forgetting all the movies that we were supposed to catch.... Bring my boyfriend back already.... pls... I miss him.... I need him to accommodate the other side of my bad over the weekends... :(

To stay or not to stay?

Just bumped into an ex-colleague downstairs. He tells me that the agency he's in now is hiring. Interested? Well, he's one good sales person and after like 5 minutes, I was tempted. Why the hesitation you ask? Well, the office is on the 17th floor.... and yes! Only 6 floors up in this very same building! Which means that I would still have to pay 6 bucks a day parking... now you get the picture... And the air quality? Will it be the same here?

But then, apparently it's quite relaxing there (according to him, let's call him A), as in people there are quite laid back. You have time for life! No wonder Simon, even though he's on the X-pack account still manage to hit the gym nearly every lunch hour.... A says that you can talk terms, like maybe not to work on the X-pack account, or weekends.... or hey! Maybe even a parking card! See! Then I can save there! Even if not, my pay will be higher d right?

But, agency again? Hmm.... I don't really mind if it's like what I do in McCann, but better, not so dead. Maybe like Vibes, but not so sucky la.....

How ar?? A says he will look out for me... what if? What if? Excited yet scared.... Geez.....

Shhh.....

One of the reasons why I want out of this place:

It's damn bloody quiet! No music, no talk. Only the sounds of squeaky chairs and mouse clicks. Damn! I can even hear my music from my earphones on the table!

And you call this an Agency? Cis! More like a strict China factory to me!

So efficient!

8 jobs done in 6 hours!

Beat that!

So efficient!

Can go home d.... :D

Soooo stubborn!

Why... Why won't you just go away? You are making me so miserable... I feel so depressed every time i see you, don't you know that? They are all waiting, just patiently waiting for you to leave so that they can finally 'come out'. Do you know that the others are being blamed because of you? I know that he is just the messenger, but... you see! Because he has no choice, it's his job. He too wish to bring me good news, but you never let him... why?

Why are you still haunting me? What good is it that you are here? I'm really trying my best, my very very best to make you go away... but no... you are just soooo stubborn....

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1 kg!!

Speaking from the heart

"I love love to eat but it always makes me fat."

So true..... no?

To go or not to go....

Opinion: Do you think I should ditch half day of work and go up to Penang again for the weekend?

Well, my main concern is not really work but more to mum. I feel kinda bad to leave her alone at home over the weekend. She will worry if I'm left alone at home because I'm young female and it's dangerous, but mum's a female too... what makes you think that being older means you are safer?

If the boyfriend is free for the weekend, he should then come home right? He have been there for a whole month already! It's time to come home...

Okay. Decided. Not going. Stay back and do homely stuff.... and hopefully the bf will come home... :)

Yes! I did it!

Finally! After all my lame excuses the past weeks, I finally gained up all my courage and did it! I'm free..... free.....

It was not as bad as I thought it would be....

Well, looks like I better rush up on my portfolio super duper ASAP now...

But still... I'm free.... free..... :)

Dance with my father

I always loved this song and today when my colleague suddenly played it, my eyes became extra watery, extra fast.

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Luther Vandross - Dance with my father

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then
Spun me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love love love to dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me (yeah, yeah)
Then finally make me do just what my momma said
Later that night, when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me

If I could steal
One final glance
One final step
One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
Cause I'd love love love to dance with my father again

Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I'd pray for her even more than me (2x)

I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she' s dying to dance with my father again

Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

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This is like only the 2nd time I heard this song since my father passed away 3 months ago. Maybe because I'm PMS-ing but I just felt so much emotion when ever the chorus came.

"If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never ever end
How I'd love love love to dance with my father again"

I don't know... he was never really a father, but no matter what, he IS still my father and I know deep deep down in me, as much as I will never admit, I somehow hoped that he would change, I could introduce him to my boyfriend, my husband. We might not stay together, but if I were to bump into him, I would acknowledge. I would visit him often if he was put into a home... I never ever expected hi to leave so soon.... mand just like in the lyrics, " If I could get another chance..."

If I didn't work

If I stopped working in advertising, I would want to make traveling my full time job ( but if only I have the moolah >_<). That would be a dream come true... But deep down some where hidden at a tiny corner of my brain, there is always this dream of mine to open up a little café, a cake shop... a cozy tiny little place where mummy and I can sell our bakes, a simply place. No heavy cooked food. Maybe some simply home cooked dishes once in a while, but mostly cakes and cookies. We will only bake and cook a limited amount daily, so that our food is always fresh. We can place some table and chairs, like an 'arty' cafe where people can come and hang around. Only fresh original ingredients are used. So it's purely 100% home made.

Besides that, I can still continue to do design by designing the store and packaging. I would be my own client and do my own critique. I can finally express my thoughts in art and design. There are so many concepts in my mind right now.... The place has to look simple, easily maintained. White is a good concept but not for my place. How long can white stay white, right? Because I also want to do my little part in helping the environment, my store concept will be environmental friendly. but this does not mean it has to look woody, ala Starbucks etc.... I can play with that idea on my packaging. Only brown biodegradable material is used. And design wise, less is more. Back to the basics. Silk screen printing.

The furniture. Even though I would like the place to be cozy, I don't think sofas are a good idea. It would be hard to maintain. No one wants to sit on a couch with multiple stains and smell right? We can have padded chairs instead. Maybe each table has it's own little theme, like 'love zone' or '80's zone' etc.. Then each 'zone' will be decorated following it's theme, but not too heavy. Less is more remember.

Also, we can have a patio area. Hmm... so it would be great if we can rent a place on the 1st floor. Not too high... no one wants to climb up so may flights of stairs just to chill. The patio can be a smoking area (maybe not too because maybe our little place is a non smoking place). The main reason for the outdoor patio is for people like me who are afraid of the cold.

I would not want the place to be crowded. So there will only be a minimalistic of seating area. Then at a corner, I can maybe collaborate with some bookstore to sell some design books and nick-nacks.

This is only a rough idea and though of my little once-in-a-while-forgotten-dream. If it could really come true... wouldn't it be amazing...

Because I couldn't sleep

... I planned my 3-months-away Bangkok Trip all over again (again!)
... I tossed and turned
... I did 20 sit-ups, 3 minutes bicycle paddle, 3 minutes leg lifts
... I went through my finances (again!)
... I organized my wallet
... I doodled
... I craved for nasi lemak
... I played with my lions
... I reorganized my whole phone book
... I thought about painting my nails
... I did a rough monologue in my head about this post

I swear that I did not drink a single drop of coffee the whole day! I swear! But why couldn't I fall asleep? All I drank was a cup of milk tea for dinner.... please don't tell me that I cannot drink tea now too! Is my caffeine tolerance that low? When did it became that low? Not a week ago... tea???

OMG! What's happening to my body??

Today was the day

Remember my Bahasa post 2 days ago? Remember what the content was? (*click here to refresh your memory) Well, today was supposed to be THE day, but I still haven't done it yet. ...aye... why? Honestly I don't know. Maybe there is that little part of me that is afraid that I don't have a net to fall on after here... how la?

Tomorrow? Tomorrow sounds good? right? right? Besides, I said 2 weeks notice right? And start next Monday, it is still 2 weeks.... or worst comes to worst... one week notice.... can? ;p

I have a follower??

Okay.... never ever has it crossed my mind that people will actually read my blog, well, besides a few of my very very close friends whom I told... but I now have a follower?? And someone who I don't know! It's really weird... weird in a sense that there are (more to 'is' now) people/strangers who reads about my life, thoughts and opinions and are actually interested....

When I first saw the (very new to me) green human icon on my dashboard page, the first person who came to mind was Honey. She did mention recently that she's re-blogging again and is in the mist of setting up her page. But wow... I'm still trying my best to digest this newly found 'excitement'.

Anyhow, a bit about my follower. His name is Stephen and I think he's from Australia. This is what he says about himself: " I am a 62 year old male,married with two grown up children I am semi retired, I do two days work per week at travellers aid in the city. My hobby is bird watching,and trips in the country. I am Charismatic, funny, articulate, brilliant, intelligent,and ,according to my grandchildren a boring fuddyduddy.I think they have a point."

Well, it's kinda funny that my follower (Man! I got to stop emphasizing on this.. so embarrassing...) is an old man. Why would a semi retired man be interested in a my blog? I have this mix feeling of weirdness and at the same time admiration. If only my mum was this tech savvy.....

Still a bit dumbfounded, "Welcome Stephen! Thank you for finding what I write interesting. Enjoy reading! :)"

But then again, maybe he 'ter-press' the follow button and is not really interested leh.... hmm.... dun bother. I'll still continue blogging for that reason why I started. :)

A picture paints a thousand words....

...... and make your sappy lovey-dovey hormones wake up and jump around giving you mix feelings and 'bungee jumpy' heart....

Turbo... where are you?

It's days like this that I really wish that there is this turbo button that I can just press and make everything go faster....

Not only my day at work is slow, internet is slow too, time is even slower!! Another 2 more hours before I can flee.... God.... It's so gong to feel like forever.....

*Crazily press imaginary turbo (x 1000000000000 times)...... damn! Still not working... -_-III

NaÏve

As promised this afternoon...ta-da! Me favorite book of the moment! :)


Awe.... isn't she pretty (yes! it's a she... it's printed obviously on the cover...hello...)

It was like love at first sight... The moment I flipped through it and saw this 2 pages... I knew I had to have her.... *heart melts.....

You might think I'm crazy... but.... *heart melts (x2)

Me happys!

Me happys because me just bought new design book! It's been a while since I bought a new book...

Will upload pics of it tonight if I remember and not too lazy... ;p

So the happys!!!! :D

p/s: Super happy posts deserves to be PINK! wee.....

Closed door

Hari-hari tutup pintu. Patutlah semua orang tak gembira kerja kat sini. You nak merajuk sebab banyak orang resign sekali... well, tanyalah diri sendiri ini salah siapa?

I tak kisah sebernanya you tutup pintu ke tidak... yang buat saya tak begitu selesa adalah kerana dengan pintu yang ditutupi itu menambah lagi banyak stress saya untuk menberitahu dia bahawa saya pun sudah nak resign.

Help me! 2 more days till I gather up all my courage, and even if I don't happen to have any on that day, I still have to tell. Door closed or not.... :(

A layer of blurry white

Funny that I didn't notice it the whole drive through to work... till I finally looked out of the office window from the 11th floor.... Man! Does the sky look dreamy.... but too bad we're not in fantasy land.... apparently the haze is back!

Great! Hope my nose is not planning for a full 'blown out' sneezy running orchestra.... -_-III

Saya tak suka malam Ahad! Sangat tak suka!

Urrgh! I dread and hate Sunday nights!

Sleep always seem shorter than usual, even if you slept for 12 hours. Tomorrow morning comes just too soon! And the fact that I have to be cooped up in that very unhealthy working place (both mentally and physically wise unhealthy) for 10 hours.... arrgh!!! I just feel like pulling all my hair off!

Why aren't I able to find my perfect career path yet? Is it that so hard to find or am I too picky?? :(

Hmm... looks like my "quarter life crisis" is back..... selamat pulang!! >_<

Time for a change

I think it's about time I changed my header and water mark. The paint splash identity is starting to look kinda weak to me. Okay, very weak! The splashes on my pictures are starting to get on my nerves....

When I got the time la!

But I never have time! I don't even have the time to clean up my career!

God! Gotta organize and prioritize my time better.... help............

REISE399 @ RM389

... that is how much a Braun Buffel men's wallet cost! Quite the ex rite? Even I don't own such an expensive purse! My Guess was bought of a warehouse sale at RM50 only leh! Where can like that?? I rarely (or never) ever spend so much on another person besides myself. Haha... I'm so full of myself. ;p But anyhow, for my love and to see a smile on his face every time he uses it, it's worth every single penny. :D

Silver paper bag with gold stamping of the Buffalo logo

But not just any cheapo paper okay... got changgih-changgih texture one some more

It's a present so have to wrap lor... FOC :)

Finally, the actual product. Braun Buffel REISE series 399.

Apparently, this 399 is the latest latest edition to the REISE series that it's not even featured on their website yet (http://www.braunbuffel-asiapac.com/).

Did you know, all BB products are guaranteed for life. You can just drop by any of it's stores nation wide to get it polished. Plus, it's also guaranteed for life. If there are some thread or default to the logo etc., you can always send it back for fixing (a cost might be charged depending on the damage la).

I'm very happy with my purchase. A bit over my budget, but it's okay. Me likes it very much.... hope he likes it too! :)

Happy Birthday darling! ~~♥

Typical Malaysians

Over heard a conversation between colleague J and Z just minutes before I packed and left. Z was teaching J some tricks on how to distortion in Illustrator.

5 minutes after the tutorial...

J: Eh! How again ar?? Why I cannot 'lai' d one? How to 'lai'?

Dah lah ber-slang Malaysian, but how to 'lai'?? haha.... damn funny!

This is what happens when you are Malaysian.

And FYI, 'lai' (拉) reads 'la' in Mandarin 'lai' in Cantonese and it means 'pull/drag'.

FAIL

I'd rather read other people's blog than to blog on my own space.

So the fails...... :s How to be a blogger like that? And even though of earning extra cash from it!

PUH-LEEEE-SEEEEEE!!!!!

"Sau Pei La!" (which means 'please keep up your skin' in China, which translating it to proper England means "Dream on", for you non slit eyes readers.)

Stuffed

1/2 a cup of instant mushroom soup and 4 pieces or soda biscuits.

Soooooo no fun. :(

Minus 5

After 5 days of hibernating and still I dreaded to come in to work today morning. I'm suppose to feel more alive and fresher.... but instead, I'm still as tired as the first day. Worst still, I'm feeling feverish. Don't know is it real fever or it's my body releasing heat to keep my body warm from the air-cond.

Besides that, is it me or does the roads seem more dangerous than 5 days before? Even though the traffic was relatively smooth this morning, but the drivers.... horrible! No penitence, no courtesy!

5 hours count down till the "ice machine" is turned off.
6 hours count down till I can go home..... which is equivalence to 360 minutes... so long.... :(

15%

How la.... 15% only... maybe lesser some more.... how to finish on time?

*Help??

Diagnose please...

Fever only in the evenings (around 6-7pm).
Itchiness over the body only in the evenings too.

*Plus* headache (like pliers clipping head) occasionally.

*New* just 15 seconds ago sharp sudden pains in ear.

AdSense

Never saw this tab before also wan? So itchy hand went and click on it. Next thing I know, I'm signing up for this earn money online ad space for my blog.

Macamla I have a very big fan base.... oh well.... we'll see la.... maybe someday, one day, I'll get a cheque in the mail... that should be quite a nice surprise. :)

Where to start?

Update resumé = checked.

List of past jobs/projects = checked.

Shortlisted interested jobs/vacancies/Agencies = checked.

Reorganize portfolio = lazy... -_-III

Aye.... how la like that.... but my head hurts now and I feel the fever coming back.... T_T

Any good people who are good at organizing, Apple savvy and knows know to use Adobe professional suite willing to help me out?? pls.......0.0♥ (okay...if you don't get what that means, it's me doing big puppy dog eyes with love.....)

I tidak berduit banyak but I can feed you..... sushi? Cakes? Pasta? Thankyouverymuchyou!!


p/s: when I said "I", I actually meant mummy.... hey! You don't expect little sicky-weaky me to cook for you right? *cough cough (see! I'm even coughing!)

K.O. x2

I've been out for 2 days straight. Mentally felling better but body's still blinking red light (like Ultraman).

Restless. Have craving for lots and lots of different food but will feel disgusted in a split second.

Feel like going on a long break. Go for a holiday and not think about my finances. Just want to splurge and not have a care in the world.

But the internet is not helping much. Slow connection and there is noting that catches my interest. Life's not very happening now.

The weather! Urgh! Don't even start with the weather!

I just don't want to be in this dimension right now!

Swollen eyes

Sound like some sappy country love song? Well I just wish it was! Yesterday (I meant Wednesday), which means 2 days ago since it's already 1.15am now, I started feeling a fever coming on and I had joint aches. Besides that, I've not been sleeping well for the past 2 nights either. I kept waking up in the middle of the night and couldn't seem to fall back asleep. I was feeling so restless. Also, I've been feeling dizzy recently, as in all of the sudden, I will loose my balance, standing or sitting. I will just sway.

Anyway, me being kinda paranoid about the recent A(H1N1) virus spreading around and I had 3 of of the 5 symptoms ( fever, joint pain and cough), I finally decided to go seek a doctor.

Wednesday (1 July) @ 8.45pm: Went to the doctor's. Told him all my symptoms. He had this look on his face that I'm 100% not infected by the flu, but he kept asking me am I married. Huh? Okay, It's normal procedure for him to ask me this in case if I was pregnant and there are certain medication that I cannot take. But when he next told me... I nearly fell of my chair. According to him, feeling dizzy and vomitish for no reason is actually a symptom of morning sickness. Ha! Me pregnant? My doctor is a funny man. But doctor, I don't get dizzy only in the morning, and I did you hear me say that I vomited? And.... my dizziness is more of a swaying, not the room spinning.... geez...... why never listen finish only diagnose one?? So kam cheong for what? Anyhow, after we clarified that I'm not pregnant and I my blood pressure is also normal, he then gave me some paracetamol, pain killers and cough pills and I was good to go.

Wednesday (1 July) @ 9.30pm: After food, took the pills as prescribed. Checked to see again if the pills given was correct (Side track a bit. I'm actually allergic to Panadol (the paracetamol brand) and Ponstant (the pain killer brand). This doctor of mine is aware of this (that's why I only go to him) and he is always very careful when prescribing drugs for me.) 2 paracetamol, 1 pain killer and 1 cough pill after meal, swolled and after 1/2 an hour, I was feeling a bit drowsy. Should be the cough pills. Went to bed.

Wednesday (1 July) @ 10.57pm: Woke up to feel irritation to my eyes. Looked intot he mirror and OMG!! My eyes were swollen!! Asked mummy to rush me back tot he clinic. Luckily the clinic was not closed yet.

taken at 11.30pm

The doctor scrtached his head as I scratched my itcy body. How could this happen? He did not prescribe me any wrong medicine. And I totally agree. But why is this still happening? Aye... solution was either a jab or pills. I took the pills (jabs creeps the hell out of me!)

the culprit

Wednesday (1 July) @ 11.30pm: Took down evidence of the whole drama and also swolled my pills. Hope that it works and helps lessen the swelling. If not, I have to go back for that jab. Slept like a dead goldfish after that.

Man! Those was some super powerful drugs. I pratically slept throught the whole day. When I finally woke up after nearly 17 hours, this was how I look like.

1 eye's back to normal but the other... er.... still not very happening la....

26 hours later. This is how it looks like now.

Looks pretty normal back d rite?

Aye.... the only thing I can think of now is of all the pain I have to go through next time. No drugs.... then deliver time ma die lor..... :( aye.......

Post Super Size

Finally caught Morgan Spurlock's "Super Size Me" (ya... I know I'm kinda (super) out dated) 2 weeks ago when I visited Darling in Penang.


Heard loads of disgusting horror stories about the "documovie" but you'll really have to watch it for yourself to really understand how bad it is.... seriously... McD is disgusting! Can't believe that I was actually once addicted to it! (proof here and here)

Anyhow, it has been weeks since I last ate McD, and since watching it, my craving for it, on a scale of 1(barf)-10(drool).... I'm at 0/1. Yup! That's how big the impact it was to me.... but today.... I woke up super hungry as I didn't ate anything at all yesterday the whole day, litterally. So I decidid to have breakfast. I wanted something simply, fast, easy, with meat.... Rotiboy's sandwiches was the first thing that came to mind... but there is no Rotiboy near by. I didn't want to go over to Bukit Tinggi's bakery because I didn't want to detour so I tought maybe just try my luck at any el chepo bakery in front of my Taman... but tak buka! Ish!! Only stores opened: Mamak, wet market... and McD's! Damn! I was in quite a hurry so befor my brain can start debating, my legs are already walking through the door and my mouth's already ordering!

Fine lor.... McD's mar McD's lor rite? Incase it's 'quite' a sandwich rite? Meat in between 2 pieces of bread - Sandwich!

Now, nearly 2 hours later after I took my final bite... I feel like puking! The smell's not as tempting as it used to be anymore..... It now smells.... foul to me. How can fresh cooked warm food smell bad?

Conclusion... at this moment now.... McD's (and any other fast food)... you are EVIL... EVIL...