Captain Corelli's Mandolin

A friend posted this note on Facebook. A short paragraph from Captain Corelli's Mandolin by Louis de Bernieres. What it said was just amazing... and of course, IT IS one of the most famous and impactful quotes from the book.

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being in love which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.

Weekend list

This weekend, I'm going to:
- wash and rinse everything I bought from Bangkok
- get a hair cut
- do spring cleaning which includes:
- re-organize my wardrobe
- re-arrange/re-decorate my room
- organize my stuff (get rid of unwanted stuff)
- catch up (hopefully) on all the drama series I've downloaded
- meet up with my 'sisters'

Really hope I have enough time for all that. It's not a long list but I foresee it will take up a lot of time. Wish me luck!

Life. But...

Got this in the mail today.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.
You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too,
so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love
for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone
you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every
sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.
Don't be afraid that your life will end,
be afraid that it will never begin.

True. Very true. But, if only it was that easy. It's always easier said than done.

Another from W

W got me this too when we were in Bangkok.

Sawadeekarp. Me name Logan.
Me from Bangkok.
You can also call me Wolverine.

It's funny how this "relationship" of ours is heading.... gifts practically every single week? Wonder how long more is this going to last..... hmm.....maybe I should do a post on all the things he gave me. Yea.... that sounds like a fun project. :)

Open your eyes and see...

Caught this on the way to work this morning. The sky was just amazing. Something good to start my weekend. ^_^

NKVE @ 8.00am (31.10.08)

Trunks vs. Trunks

Because I took Super Sayan Trunks to work, normal Trunks finally got to come out of the box.Trunks from GT & Super Sayan Trunks from Z

Happy Halloween!!

Novotel, Siam Square, Bangkok
(28.10.08)

Appreciation

Bangkok airport @ 28.10.08

Funny how we humans work. Ask yourself this question. When was the last time you enjoyed the sunset... at your own taman/town/city/state? Have you ever stopped feeling agitated while stuck in a jam and just admire what's around you?

People say the grass is always greener on the other side. I don't deny that saying. But my interpretation is a bit different: After seeing the greener grass, you will learn to appreciate life more. Then, the grass on this side will eventually be greener as well...once you've opened your eyes...

Mind reder(s)??

On October 8th, W got this for me and I blogged about it (*click)

When we were in Bangkok, he got this for me.Super Sayan Trunks

He got it at Chatucak market; even when were were not talking to each other, as much as I don't want to admit it, we always think about each other. Why do I say that? Well, at Chatucak, I bought him something as well. I was surprised when he came into my room and passed me this. Besides that, we even bought the same Happy Tree Friend character t-shirt.

This doesn't mean anything romantic or me putting hope in us or stuff. It's just that I realize that there are people who comes into your life and leave foot steps; but, there are some too that come and stay there forever, no matter how hard you try to chase them away.

W and I may not be like how we were 4 months back. But, it's hard to describe how we are already embaded in each other. We will never talk about it and may never will. We might not even see each other ever again if one of us leaves. But what ever it is, I'm actually blessed to experience how loving someone is; knowing that there is someone out there in this world who accepts you for who you are; that soul mates actually do exists; to experience hurt, pain, sadness.... to also remid me that everyting happens for a reason.

Where did this come from?

Mum and I have this mother and daughter ritual where we sit and talk every time one of us comes back from an event, outing, dinner...etc.... But yesterday, this conversation... what was mum thinking??

mum: So, Kin was there to pick you up?
me: Yea. He used my car over the weekend and pump back a full tank of petrol for me. He even topped-up my Touch-n-go. 50 bucks!
mum: He is the one. He knows you. He's stable, career stable. Mature...
me: Huh? Kin?? Yuck! He's so boring....
mum: Boring? Where got.... if he was he won't be wanting to go here and there...
me: But he always gets lost....
mum: well, he just came back mar.... not familiar with the roads...
me: But.... he....cannot lar! We are just friends.
mum: You think bout it.... both of you are in the same line... he knows how your work load is like...
me: argh.... Fong Kin Leong?! I cannot imagine!
mum: He's stable, mature, patient with your mood.... Not like W and A.... so unstable and imature...
me: This is not about W or A! What do they got to do with this?? And besides, I'm not eager to get married or what...
mum: No, I'm just saying...
me: but....Fong Kin Leong?? Cannot lar...... Okay, then what makes you think he likes me?
mum: Aiya! Of course he likes you... Who will treat someone so good, willing to wake up so early to send you to the airport, go pick you up....
me: He's not lar! He's just easy... Okay, so W treats me good also what. So does this mean he likes me?
mum: He's a colleague. W's heart is still flattering around. Not stable.....
me: Kin is not stable as well what. Still on contract. No car....
mum: Maybe he has reasons... like he wants to keep the money for something else, he's used to taxis...
me: Ya... afraid of commitment.
mum: Aiya.... you think about it lar....
me: ya..... But Fong Kin Leong?? Urgh....

15 minutes later

me: (holding up the voodoo doll K bought for me) Cute? It's a love voodoo doll.... K bought it cause he's eyes look so sad, and he's holding a bag filled with love...
mum: (taking the doll from my hand) for Kin lor...
me: =_=|||

It irritates me that we are so alike

Angry at the world cause it's not going your way.

Irritated with the people around you but don't know how to deal with it.
Want to talk but don't know where to start.
Know the problem but don't know how to solve it.
Rather keep everything inside and pray and hope you don't explode.
Channel anger in the stupidest way possible.
Have good intentions to help and solve things but with wrong execution.
Don't mean all the mean things you said.
Apologizing seem to be the hardest thing to do.
Always think that action speaks louder than words, but at times, words ARE louder than actions.
Always hope that he other person know what you want/what you think.
Ego/shy to take first move.

Can we not be so alike!! It irritates me that I know all these but cannot do anything about it.
I really want to help you... It makes me angry to not be able to help you. It makes me angry to see you angry at yourself....it makes my heart break... but.... will I offend you? Is what I'm feeling really what you are feeling?

Patchy puny little hands

Cute no?
This is how he is going to "hang" everyday.
His bright yellow makes me happy. ^_^

Oh! He also reminds me of my favorite character in Happy Tree Friends.

Handy the handy man... with no hands....
Ironic huh? :)

Patchy

"Yellow" the lion is now officially renamed "Patchy". Why?

1. He has a patch on the side of his head
2. "Yellow" is so....boring?
3. Horny actually interpreted the "true" meaning behind = patch on head = patch = amend = amend/patch up our relationship
4. Point no.3 made a lot of sense and helped me put what I was feeling into context.

I now declare your name to be "Patchy"

Now, to find a time to officially announce to the "presenter" about the name change. (that's going to be challenge... *gulp)

p/s: Thank you Horny.... wow... didn't know you were so metaphoric... :p

Ka Boom!!

A just threw an expected bomb down on everyone when discussing about transportation to the airport for the Bangkok trip.

Me? bf??

Hmm... wonder what's his reaction.... heart sank? Agitated? How I feel every time I hear him talk about her? Didn't catch it just now.

Dried out but still there

Remember these flowes from the road side (*click)

I never had the heart to throw them away (like how I deleted all those sms-es). So here they are on my CPU, dried out but still there....
... held up together with the post-it note I received on my birthday from W. Yet another item I did not had the heart to dispose off (and regretted throwing away the other post-its he left me when I thought he threw away those I left him; which he actually did not and is kept in his drawer).

Timing out

I've already lost count on how many times our (or rather his) timing is out since I started the cold war. When I'm smoking, he is not. When he is smoking, there are other people around. When I'm done, then only he comes out.

Why do I smoke? Because I was hoping that he would come out to have a smoke too. So that we can have some personal time to talk.

So out. Need twigging , need adjustments.

Typographic

Was doing usual surfing and came across this. Remember using this as a reference for one of my collage assignments. Super cool typo & graphics. Low tech but with a lot of thought put into it. Brilliant!

Steven Spielberg's "Catch Me if You Can"

How do you start out a new day?

1. Wake up at 6.30
2. Shower
3. Dress up
4. Drive, get stuck in a bit of jam
5. Enjoy the morning
6. Get good parking space
7. Be the first in at work...

wait! No I was not!
Spoil plan....
hmmph! >_<

Delete. Deleting. Deleted.

I was deleting my sms-es from my phone yesterday. Couldn't believe all the sms-es flooding my in box. As usual, I will always keep the ones that meant something to me. Then I remembered. Just a few months ago, I couldn't bare to delete any single sms. Every single one was precious and meaningful to me. But one day, with just one button, I deleted every single one; with out filtering. Sometimes, I really wished that I didn't did that. But then again, sometimes I'm glad that I did.

Memories are meant to be sweet. They are a bit blurry now but I'm glad that I that short period of sweet memories to remember.

Angel of destruction

Just for fun. Testing out my photoshop skills while waiting for K to come back. :)

My new wallpaper

What happened to RM1?

Was feeling so the hungry when I woke up today so I stopped by the road side to get a packet nasi lemak on the way to work. I bought the same bungkus type last week near office which cost RM1.10 so I thought it would be cheaper to get it in Klang (since Klang is so "kampung" compared to Damansara). But to my surprise, when I asked the mak cik "how much?", she answered me RM1.20!! What?? How can this be?

What happened to the "nasi lemak satu ringgit" Malaysia is famous for? It even used to be 80/90 sen for one bungkus in some places not too long ago. And don't give me the excuse of petrol hike. Do your hands run on petrol to bungkus these nasi lemaks? Kena con I tell you... we are all conned!!

"nasi lemak satu ringgit dua puluh sen"

doesn't even sound catchy. Hmmph!

Splash some colour on me

Just had to take a picture of these lovely red orchids at Chef & Brew during lunch. The colour really made my day. :)

Monday's surprise

Came into the office today morning to find this little thing sitting there in front of my monitor.

I name him “小黃” (Yellow)

Yellow has this patch on his head. Is he hurt or does he have a headache?

It doesn't matter, I still think he's cute :)

It's really very sweet of him. But why? Honestly, I cannot read him now days. I ask myself a lot of questions I cannot answer. When did he buy it? During the weekends? Was she with him? What was her reaction? Does she know? Did he hide it from her? He give me gifts, but why does he still look so cold, so sad? Is he stressed from work? Angry at me? Fed up with me?

Sometimes I really just want to go up to him and hug him, kiss him on the forehead to tell him everything will be fine. But can I? I've chosen this path to do what I'm doing now to help me move on and I have to carry walking forward. I have to be responsible for my actions and promises. Life is one straight road, there is no turning back.

Sunday's bake

Promised N that I will bake for her as a birthday present. And that was how I spent my Sunday. Am very happy with how it came out. :)

Cake bater before going into the oven.

This is how it looks like baked.

After cutting away the edges and turning the cake up side down to fit into the box.

Decorated with chocolate fudge and colour sprinkles.

Pretty...

Some in smaller bite size.

Close up shot.

Look at the chocolate flowing down the sides...

Tada! Final product.

Add a ribbon for the Birthday girl's. For presentation purposes. Nice?

How to wash a lion

Step 1: Drown. Ops! I mean soak lion in bucket of hot water.

Step 2: Add "body wash". I use Dynamo. 1 cap full is all you need.

Step 3: Leave to soak for 10 minutes.

Yuck! Look at that! So iky!

Step 4: Rinse soap water off and add softener for that fluffy soft floral scent fur.

Step 5: Leave to sun.

Make sure he changes his pose once in a while to make sure every part is sunned.

Tada! Day 2 and you will have a clean fluffy soft floral scent happy lion!

Tips: Works on other animals too.

         Days to dry depends on size of animal and weather.

19.9.08

Finally managed to transfer pictures from my phone using the office desktop. The one picture that made me stop for more than minute to look at it was this.

Wild flowers from the road side.

Who else will give me things like this? This was the very last time he gave me flowers. Another thing I will surely dearly miss.

Optimus is speechless

My Optimus sponge head's speech bubble fell off and I can't seem to find it. :(

Optimus is now speechless. He's not the same without his friendship quote... :(

Me is so the sads....

Star"fake"

Saw this on the way back from the zoo last weekend. 

Logo look some what familiar?

Ah.... 

Iky Wiky Me

My laptop needs a bath. D-E-S-P-E-R-A-T-E-L-Y! It's so the disgusting....

Me is a iky wiky girl. ;p

TGIF!!!

What day is it today? It's Friday! Yea! This whole week left kinda weird... sometimes it feels so fast, sometimes it feel so slow. Looking back at my posts for the week, I did blog, but why is it I felt like I haven't in a long time? Is a 24 hours hiatus that long?

Yesterday was a very busy day for me. I came into the office at 7.30am. I really thought I would be the earliest, but.... (I hate it when we think alike) W was already in! Gosh... there went my little "go heat up egg tarts from yesterday night for breakfast" plan down the drain. Urgh.... So we still didn't talk. Just stuck our asses on our own place and worked till the civilization came. But that's not the end of the story just yet. The both of us were the last to leave last night too. It was awkward.

Anyway, yesterday was yesterday. Today is today. And today is what I will live for now. ^_^

Sponge heads

I'm the type of girl who is easily pleased with the simple things in life. It's nice to be able to receive expensive stuff, but most of the time, it's the thought that counts.

W is one of those guys (or maybe the only one so far) that understands that about me. Quirky little gifts whether bought or hand made is more than enough to make this silly girl's day.

My collection of sponge heads courtesy of W the first few months I started working there. Every time when the printer toner needs a change, I will receive a sponge head.

From left: Blur, Happy, Sleepy, Sad & Angry

(plus a sad old Mac PC which means super sad)

Blur was the first to come and then the rest followed. I used to come into the office every morning and arrange the heads according to my mood that day. And when W comes in, he will read them and then know how to treat me that day. I miss those days....

Today after a long hiatus for God knows how many months, I got to add a new head to the row.

Optimus: Friendship/I appreciate you

You know something, I'm so going to miss all this when I leave. Hmm... wonder will there be a space in the box for these?

Peace Offering?

My "BIG" move this morning (*click). Here's what happened after.

Went out for lunch with A and when I came back, this was there.

"Friendship is the right of all sentient beings."

Quoted from Transformers (2007) Optimus Prime's "Freedom is the right of all sentient beings."

Peace offering? Honestly I have no freaking idea. The more I think about it, the more childish it gets. We're still not talking. Or more accurately I'm still not talking to him. I'm still too ego, too shy, too stubborn to open my mouth. Anyway, he was out the whole day for meeting so, we'll see what happens tomorrow.

Oh! How about my Max Payne movie?

God.... I don't want to go to work tomorrow.... :(

iTunes = iLike

Updated my iTunes yesterday and WOW! Check it out. It looks so super cool. Me likes very very much... :) They took cues from iPhoto.... me likes... :)

Update on my "BIG" move

In the office now. Took me 2 hours, 3 highways and 5 tolls to get to work today morning. Then came in to find the office in a mess due to the water leakage from yesterday night's heavy rain.

Anyhow, Optimus is already in position. But the target is still yet to be seen.

Die! Now I'm getting nervous... should I just retreat before the target shows??

Okay. I'm ready.I'm healed. I'm fixed....I guess

After "hibernating" for 22 days, I think I'm healed. I'm fixed. I think I'm ready to move on... or already is moving on.

I was furious just now when A told me something W said. I was so angry. So pissed off. But then after an hour later, I've totally forgotten about it and actually saw why W said it from a different angle. I know him. I don't want to but then I cannot help it. He usually won't say things like this. For some stupid reason, I felt that he's having problems, that's why he's cranky. Plus, wanting to pull an all-nighter even when it's not really necessary, I say he's trying to avoid something (someone). But then that is just my guess.

Anyhow, above all that, the point is, I'm not sad anymore. I'm not angry anymore. I'm not crying anymore. I kinda miss my friend. I know I will not want it to be like before again. I just don't want to make the working environment so hostile anymore. He will not influence my mood anymore. Besides, I'm very sure I will not be staying long.

Am I ready to talk? Take the first move? I'm like 100% sure now this moment, but tomorrow in the office is a total different story. I've even booked tickets for Max Payne this Thursday. Now my only problem is for me to drop my ego and just.... do it!

Well, so Optimus, I think you are going to work with me tomorrow.

It finally came!!

After nearly 2 months, this finally came in the mail for me:

Ta-da! My Threadless™ t-shirts!

Ya, I know.... 2 months is kinda long... but then everything happens for a reason, remember? I've totally forgotten about this and it was quite a nice surprise to receive something out of the blue (even if you're the one who paid for it =_=").

Anyways, this is what I got:

Grandpa Cassette.

Cutes, no?

Burnout.

Funny huh?

Poker Hand Values

My favorite (since I'm a typo fan)

Check out the typography...

Me likes*

Wee... Now somebody has 3 new (and super duper awesome) t-shirts to wear!!  Me hearts Threadless™... but then hor, don't take so long to deliver lar..... ^_^

A "for no reason" post on love

So what if you've been together for 3,4,5 even 6 years. When the passion's gone, it's gone. Besides, you were so young then. It's good if the both of you are trying to patch things up. But that only applies if the both of you still have feelings for each other. 

Feelings, make sure you know very well what you are feeling. Is it passion/love or is it just routine? Understand your feelings first and know what you want is more than 100% sure before you make a decision. Some things cannot be taken back.

Afraid to admit what you are feeling and lying to yourself is not going to get you anywhere. So what if you partner is happy? But are you? Isn't being in a relationship/in love suppose to be happy? If you are not happy, then what are you in?

Love. Love means accepting the person for who he/she is, not wanting the person to become who you want them to be. There is  nothing about that person you ever want to change. Good or bad, everything of that person in your eyes is just perfect. And you, how long can you pretend to be that person that you are not in front of him/her? How long do you think you can get away with it? You will eventually explode one day. The mask you wear will get heavier and heavier and when you finally take it off, he/she will not recognize the monster standing in front of them. Then, I will say now that it is your fault. You have not only wasted your time, but his/hers as well.

If you want the person you claim you love to change, then isn't he/she not the right fit for you?Stripping him/her of her freedom, life, friends... always feeling insecure and then invading their privacy.... are you then happy? If the puzzle doesn't fit the mould, then it doesn't fit. It's sad that you've spend all these years turning it in every angle you think might fit but, just let it go already. It's a 2000 piece puzzle. There is another 1999 other pieces you haven't tried.

If you don't like the person standing in front of you and is always complaining then, isn't that a hint? A sign? Ask yourself, why don't you want to listen to his/her day at work? Why don't you want to know more about his/her past times and interests? Why must you criticize who he/she hangs out with?Why must he/she be happy when you are happy and you cannot be sad when he/she is sad?

Being in love with each other might look like a 2 people thing, and it is. But if a 3rd person is used and hurt in your love, then ask yourself why? Why was there a 3rd person in the first place?

If only you could read what I just wrote. Please open your eyes and see with your heart. It doesn't have to be so bitter, it doesn't have to be so painful, or sad. It suppose to be such a beautiful thing.

Coincidence?

This has been on my table for quite a while now (I think since I stopped talking to him). Is it a coincidence that it's placed like this of was someone trying to make a statement? 

You see, I sit on the right and W sits on the left. I bought the Dark Vader and he bought R2D2. So why is Dark Vader and R2D2 facing each other's back? And isn't Dark Vader suppose to be on my side and R2D2 vice versa? And how about Anikin? A bought Anikin and he is.... stuck in the middle. Hmm..... coincidence? Or am I just thinking too much? 

So metaphoric, no?